I’m Disappointed In You

It’s been quite a journey over the last couple of years. At times, I’ve wanted to give up. Abandon the fight. But deep down, I knew the fight would be worth it. Jesus has been taking me back. I’ve been re-visiting old memories. Memories that I had long forgotten until the Spirit gently and lovingly brought them back to the surface. I had buried them. Like hidden treasure that lay deep below the ocean bed. But Jesus tells us in Isaiah 61 that He has come to ‘bind up the broken hearted and set the captives free’. I am broken hearted. Indeed we all are. There are many places in my heart that are very young, and it’s those places that Jesus is visiting to bring healing and restoration to. His desire is for me to live life from a position of whole heartedness. I was fifteen. I remember clearly like it was yesterday. I went into my parent’s bedroom and my father was lying sobbing on the bed. My father never cried. Ever. His face was buried in the pillows, and when he sensed my presence in the room, he turned and looked at me and said the words that would end up having a major impact on the rest of my life (up until now). “I’m disappointed in you.” Unknown to me at the time, I took those words, made an agreement with them and have allowed them to cause doubt and insecurity in my life for the past 20 years. I knew deep down my father didn’t really think I was a disappointment. I have a...

New Frontiers – A Few Thoughts

Howard Macey is quoted in saying, “The spiritual life cannot be made suburban.  It is always frontier, and we who live in it must accept and even rejoice that it remains untamed”. It’s no coincidence that John Eldredge quotes this in Chapter One of Wild At Heart.  It’s key to the journey we are on.  And for some guys last night, a new frontier opened up for them as they began their journey in finding out who they really are in Jesus. Proverbs 20 v 5 says that “the heart of a man is like deep water…”  How true.  For many of us, we’re only just beginning to realise the true heart of God.  And once we catch that, then we see who we really are because we were created in His image. Last night, 22 men gathered in search of their heart.  Their true heart.  The knock-on effect of this is huge!  Men who know who they really are, and know the Father whom they follow.  What a difference that would make in our marriages.  Relationships.  In our churches.  In our sexuality. A word of encouragement for those who made it last night.  Well done.  Invite the Father to speak to you over the next few weeks.  Ask Him to show you the battle you need to fight (that may look very different for each of us!).  Follow as He invites and leads you into an adventure.  And finally, don’t forget the beauty who needs rescuing.  Offer her your strength. Steven...

A Heart Relationship

Once you start to plan the work of God in your spiritual life, you have left the Holy Spirit out… You cannot ‘plan’ the Holy Spirit.  He will not fit into any plan.  What we fail to realise is that the Lord is not known or served through these methods.  He looks upon the heart.  He is looking for a ‘heart’ relationship with us.  His desire is that we live from our hearts and NOT from what we think a Christian is supposed to do. Many think that we relate to God from our hearts but we are really working for Him with our own efforts.  Jesus said that the works He did were not His works, but rather it was the Father working in Him (see John 14 v 10)....

New Frontiers – What Is It?

Are you ready for a new frontier?  Are you ready for an adventure in getting to know your Father?  We’re so excited to be sharing material with you from Ransomed Heart’s “Wild At Heart” Bootcamps.  Each month we’ll work through a different session, some of which include The Heart Of A Man, The Poser, The Wound and The New Name. Our first ‘session’ will be on Thursday 5th March at 7:30pm.  You can register your interest HERE. To give you a feel for what to expect, here’s an excerpt from the ‘Wild At Heart’ book by John Eldredge: What is it that Christianity is supposed to do to a person? What is the intended effect? Jesus healed a man on the Sabbath; the religious leadership wanted to kill him for it. Christ then publicly rebuked them:   [Y]ou circumcise a child on the Sabbath. Now if a child can be circumcised on the Sabbath so that the law of Moses may not be broken, why are you angry with me for healing the whole man on the Sabbath? Stop judging by mere appearances, and make a right judgment.” (John 7:15-24)   Jesus did this on purpose; he waited until the Sabbath to heal, because he was trying to pierce the heart of the issue: what does God want from us? What does God want for us? His answer is clear: the healing of the whole man.   God knew what he was doing from the very beginning. He decided from the outset to shape the lives of those who love him along the same lines as the life of his Son. The...

Tattoos & Cigarettes

I came across these guys on Spotify a couple of weeks ago.  One word.  Awesome. They are the Rhett Walker Band and this song is called ‘The Mystery’.  Check out this live acoustic version (see below) they recorded for Life Today.  I’ve also include the lyrics below too.  I could type a rather lengthy blog post about what this song means to me and make a feeble attempt at trying to explain it.  But to be honest, I’d rather just let the words speak for themselves… Steven     When I was younger my Daddy said to me, it’s okay to get caught up in the mystery Sometimes you’ll sit and wonder, not understand what ya see Don’t confuse the lines of truth and make-believe I’m pretty sure that Jesus ain’t worried ‘bout tattoos and cigarettes Or if you wear a golden cross around your neck What about loving your neighbor and giving to the poor I just want to love like that and nothing more Well maybe I’m crazy, maybe I’m free I just know I ain’t the man that I used to be On this side of Heaven, you won’t always get it right Sometimes you rise above, sometimes you gotta fight You never know the stories that lie beneath the skin But judgin’ now won’t change the broken places they’ve been Cause I know that Jesus ain’t worried ‘bout tattoos and cigarettes Or if you wear a golden cross around your neck What about loving your neighbor and giving to the poor I just want to love like that and nothing more Maybe I’m crazy, or...

Living In The Glory

“We were created that we could be, that we could live and share in the life and joy of the triune God.  Jesus’ Father is not holding His breath to see if we will jump through the right hoops before He decides our fate.  There is no list.  We are not here to ‘glorify God’ by our religious performance.  We are here to live ‘in the glory’ of the blessed trinity. For the Father, Son & Holy Spirit it is always about love, relationship and sharing life.  It is not about what they can get from us.” ‘The Shack,...

A number of folks I know and love are chasing hard after God these days.

I think the times are demanding it. The draining nature of the pace of life combined with the spiritual battles that seem to be hitting everyone are creating in us a deeper need and hunger for more of God. Just this week a dear friend said to me, “I just need more of God.” I sure need more of God. I bet you do, too.

John Eldredge


The most important thing about a man is not what he does.  It is who he becomes.

Dallas Willard