Do You Need A Journal?

Do You Need A Journal?

How quickly we forget His promises. What’s that all about? I’m glad I practice ‘journaling’. Not everyday. But as much as I can. I struggle a little bit with structure. Daily reading plans never really ‘fitted’ with me. I lived under the condemnation of this for years. I was ok when I ticked all the boxes and made sure I never missed a day. But whenever I discovered that I was actually 3 days behind in the plan, then it all fell apart. Do I jump back in at today’s date or do I try and do 3 days worth of readings back to back to make sure I caught up? (Surely that got me extra grace points, right??) Seriously. Where’s the life in that? Yes of course, discipline is good. Daily readings are good. But only when they offer LIFE. For me, they offered condemnation. As soon as I discovered the heart of the Father, things changed. I realised that I could live each day as an adventure with Jesus. He could show me what He wanted me to read. He could speak to me through the little heart shaped water droplet He ‘left’ on the bench for me. He could sink a scripture deep into my spirit, and when I went to look it up, it was exactly what I needed to read. And the point of journaling? Well, I forget easily. Journaling helps me remember how and when the Father speaks. I can look back over the year and see, time after time, how He came through for me. Go on, give it a try....
I’m Disappointed In You

I’m Disappointed In You

It’s been quite a journey over the last couple of years. At times, I’ve wanted to give up. Abandon the fight. But deep down, I knew the fight would be worth it. Jesus has been taking me back. I’ve been re-visiting old memories. Memories that I had long forgotten until the Spirit gently and lovingly brought them back to the surface. I had buried them. Like hidden treasure that lay deep below the ocean bed. But Jesus tells us in Isaiah 61 that He has come to ‘bind up the broken hearted and set the captives free’. I am broken hearted. Indeed we all are. There are many places in my heart that are very young, and it’s those places that Jesus is visiting to bring healing and restoration to. His desire is for me to live life from a position of whole heartedness. I was fifteen. I remember clearly like it was yesterday. I went into my parent’s bedroom and my father was lying sobbing on the bed. My father never cried. Ever. His face was buried in the pillows, and when he sensed my presence in the room, he turned and looked at me and said the words that would end up having a major impact on the rest of my life (up until now). “I’m disappointed in you.” Unknown to me at the time, I took those words, made an agreement with them and have allowed them to cause doubt and insecurity in my life for the past 20 years. I knew deep down my father didn’t really think I was a disappointment. I have a...
New Frontiers – A Few Thoughts

New Frontiers – A Few Thoughts

Howard Macey is quoted in saying, “The spiritual life cannot be made suburban.  It is always frontier, and we who live in it must accept and even rejoice that it remains untamed”. It’s no coincidence that John Eldredge quotes this in Chapter One of Wild At Heart.  It’s key to the journey we are on.  And for some guys last night, a new frontier opened up for them as they began their journey in finding out who they really are in Jesus. Proverbs 20 v 5 says that “the heart of a man is like deep water…”  How true.  For many of us, we’re only just beginning to realise the true heart of God.  And once we catch that, then we see who we really are because we were created in His image. Last night, 22 men gathered in search of their heart.  Their true heart.  The knock-on effect of this is huge!  Men who know who they really are, and know the Father whom they follow.  What a difference that would make in our marriages.  Relationships.  In our churches.  In our sexuality. A word of encouragement for those who made it last night.  Well done.  Invite the Father to speak to you over the next few weeks.  Ask Him to show you the battle you need to fight (that may look very different for each of us!).  Follow as He invites and leads you into an adventure.  And finally, don’t forget the beauty who needs rescuing.  Offer her your strength. Steven...
A Heart Relationship

A Heart Relationship

Once you start to plan the work of God in your spiritual life, you have left the Holy Spirit out… You cannot ‘plan’ the Holy Spirit.  He will not fit into any plan.  What we fail to realise is that the Lord is not known or served through these methods.  He looks upon the heart.  He is looking for a ‘heart’ relationship with us.  His desire is that we live from our hearts and NOT from what we think a Christian is supposed to do. Many think that we relate to God from our hearts but we are really working for Him with our own efforts.  Jesus said that the works He did were not His works, but rather it was the Father working in Him (see John 14 v 10)....